Shit happens

 i would just like to say thank you, for visiting this nonsensical page of mind. If you're mind f**ked in anyway/position possible, good on ya mate! 

I'm not in anyway, responsible for your mind/head/body/soul injuries. Good luck. I rant. I really do speak what's on my mind.

Have you ever met someone. Someone so beautiful, someone so handsome, someone so perfect in your eyes that all you can do around him is just, shit. 

I honestly do not know what to feel anymore. It's like one moment you're in heaven but the next you just f*cking realize that you can't have that person and that life is suuuuch a dick. And then the next moment you realize that that bitch friendzoned you and you're just like OH HEY LIFE. 

Have you ever just wondered how it feels like to be a pizza

Okay, in all seriousness, I really wonder how do gay couples actually meet. It's like if you're fated, you are. If you aren't, then you aren't. Funny how shit works right. Yes, it is indeed rocket science if you're asking. Don't even get me started on how i feel about how straight couples actually meet. 

Like, how do you know whether that person's your type and how do you know whether she knows you're her type. Or his type for that matter. I really wonder how do couples meet in general. Like, do they actually really just walk up towards one another and be all like, hey! You're cute! Let's date. BOOM. Nope. 

It's just so weird. Like, why can't i be born looking like Josh Hutcherson, walking into Ngee Ann and somehow getting the guys who i like to fall for me. Okay yes, i'm just ranting rubbish now. 

My main point is, have you ever felt like giving up just because he doesn't see you the way you see him? Well, i really do. But it's the friends who really keep me going. The friends who really motivate me and just to forget about my past. Sigh, speaking about friends, i really miss 'My babies <3' lol.

It's so hard just seeing him come in, and out everyday knowing that he has already said his piece. That he has already told me, no. But why do i still want to talk to him like as though nothing has happened? In any case, why do i still want him. It's so torturous to just think about him. Even have him pictured in my mind. "He is done with me. I'm done with him." Is this such a hard thinking to be kept constant? He is the only guy in the entire world/school/earth/universe that just makes me coming back for more. He has such a funny character like, a character somewhere out of this world. He is so immature, he is so full of rubbish, he probably doesn't have a future like me. (Oh how perfect lol). He probably doesn't know what he's doing with anything other than what he's good in. He's probably still finding a girlfriend. That dumb hoe.

He isn't perfect but he's everything i want. WHYYYY.

It's funny because no one ever ships me with anyone. Any even if they do, it's all in the name of fun. No, fun as in literal fun lol. It's just sad how no one ever notices how you feel on the inside. It's just sad how no one actually cares to know how you feel about a certain someone, or some people. Why. Is. He. So. Perfect. That i just can't seem to get him out of my mind no matter the amount of constant reminders i give myself that IT IS OVER. 

Okay you know what, have a great pizzaful night. I'm done. 

On a side note, hey blog! It's been long. Like, stone age long.